All I Want Is The World

Sometimes I feel like I'm serving time in prison by living with my family. I'm not sure how much longer I'll be able to do it. I have to sleep on the couch, with earplugs in because nobody knows how to respect someone's whose sleeping. While trying to do my homework the television is on, there are multiple people around the house talking as loud as possible, not even realizing (or caring) that I have to study or read. There's no privacy in this place. I am living out of a dresser, a few things in my brother's closet, and a backpack. I never know where any of the things I need are, they're either thrown away or shoved in a drawer somewhere. I just can't wait to live alone again, to move away and NEVER look back. I want to cook my own foods, and drink tea in absolute silence without ever being disturbed. I miss being able to walk around my house naked or listen to music whenever I'd like. Truer words have never been spoken, I am counting down the days until I'm gone forever.

No End & No Beginning

Today I packed all of my belongings and left. We have mutually agreed that we both need things that the other can't provide and that's okay. We're different in many ways which made us perfect and imperfect at the same time. Not all people are the same, not everybody is social, going to dinner parties, and not everybody likes sitting home every night drinking tea. I have learned and believe that the expectations of this or any relationship should be clearly defined and talked about frequently so nobody is left in the dark.

Over the course of the next couple of weeks I will be starting school, 15 units this semester, and working at the same time. That in itself gives me no time for anyone and the last thing I would want to do is neglect someone, become frustrated, and end things on bad terms. We are still friends, at the least. I believe we have both grown from this experience and have learned a lot about each other and ourselves. I, also, aspire to continue to learn and grow from my experiences from now on and not perceive them as negative. <3

Torn

I want you to accept me for who I am, what my history and past has made me, and who I will be in the future. If only you knew the reasons I am so negative at times. At the moment I am torn between 1) staying here, being near my family who I want to get away from, possibly being on a waitlist for nursing for 2 years, but being with you. The other option being 2) Move to Washington/Colorado, go to a better school, pay more per unit, not be anywhere near my family which would make me happy, starting my life the way I should, but not having you anymore. On most days I am leaning towards the latter, until the end of the day comes around and I am laying next to you in bed thinking I never want to be without you. When I am angry, it is really because I am sad but don't want to show it. I can't help but think what it would all be like without you. A year from now we will know exactly which path I choose, I look forward to it, and fear it all the same.

Quote 6/11/12

Me: "Oh my god Mom, you have to see the preview for Magic Mike!"

Mom: "Why?"

Me: "You will jizz your pants! Like ten thousand times!"

Mom: "Oh I will? Good thing I'm taking a shower after, then."

Me: "Gross, took it to a whole different level, Mom."

OLD FB Quotes

01/27/10 - Twelve out of four people are rapists.
02/06/10 - That's ridiculous! Nobody grows up in Florida, unless they're an orange!
03/06/10 - STOP BEING A WHINY BITCH! <3

04/05/10 - i cant stand wiggers and people who try to text me "yo wat up itz mi dat guy ya no"... are you dumb????

More to come....(this takes way too long to look through every post I ever made.)

Strongest

My days are long, and my sleep is short. I wake up early, usually an average of 7am on most days, and I go to bed late, also I'd say maybe an average of 11pm. I am getting enough hours of sleep, the full eight as most people would say, so that isn't a problem. I go to school five days a week, Monday through Friday, and I also work. The last month I was working about five days a week, but now that I've moved over to Villagio I'll only be working about three to four days a week, giving me slightly more free time. And when I say free time I mean time to do homework. I'm constantly at a running pace and am really looking forward to summer. Although, I really wanted to have summer classes so I could knock a few out of the way, it will be a nice change of pace. I really want to be able to spend more time with Tyson, family, and friends. I'm actually kicking off summer starting May 31st by flying to Colorado for my first vacation with my bestie Jordan. Should be fun times! Now it's time to finish my Macroeconomics project about current events and my Business Law paper arguing both sides on whether to keep 'Under God' in the pledge of allegiance or not by noon before going to work tonight 3p-1130p. Go me!

*Only the strongest will survive*

Backwards Natural Selection

People/the human species in general never cease(s) to amaze me with their stupidity. Whether it's grammar, nutrition, health, or basic knowledge about anything I just can't believe the things that come out of people's mouths sometimes. No wonder this country is going down the toilet. There's an entire generation born after 1990 that can't seem to spell the word "and" correctly. There have been countless occasions where I've been in class and someone raises their hand, only to have a question (using the word 'question' to describe what I hear you say is, in itself, questionable) that isn't even in the form of a complete sentence. It's like listening to a mentally retarded person talk about Business Law or Macroeconomics. Here's an example of a question I heard in class the other day: "In 1789, like, why didn't they just use the, like, train, or like something?"....1) Why are you saying 'like' so much? 2) THERE WERE NO TRANSPORTATION TRAINS IN 1789! The train, as a means of transportation, was invented in 1822 by George Stephenson. 3) How the hell did you get into college, let alone graduate high school? 4) How could anyone possibly employ you? If I were to even need the services of the establishment where you work, and I had to listen to you say ANYTHING, I would laugh, walk away, and find someone competent.

Unfortunately I don't have time to finish this rant, I need to get ready for work. The more you know!